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Music by John Vermeersch
Album art by Dathan Leith, edited by Will McCarthy

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released July 4, 2018

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John Vermeersch Shoreview, Minnesota

Thanks for stopping by! These are my demos, so if you're new here, I recommend checking out my band instead: lonelyenclave.bandcamp.com

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Track Name: Floor 15
Chorus:
Exploding with magic eight ball eyes
On the prize, they fall and rise
Like mine, in the springtime
In the sunshine, I don't mind

Take it slow, but never let me go
Don't be mean, cause I've seen it
Floor 15, in yellow green, on the screen
It's floor 15

Verse 1:
Drinking from my cup, I'm all used up
I don't have the time for all that stuff

I was me, I'm you
You're neon blue

Wishing that the flu
Could make me new

Chorus:
Exploding with magic eight ball eyes
On the prize, they fall and rise
Like mine, in the springtime
In the sunshine, I don't mind

Take it slow, but never let me go
Don't be mean, cause I've seen it
Floor 15, in yellow green, on the screen
It's floor 15

Verse 2:
Would you lend a
Very special friend?

And give me all the love
You have to send

Keep me locked
Behind a golden door

And promise that
You're always keeping more

Chorus:
Exploding with magic eight ball eyes
On the prize, they fall and rise
Like mine, in the springtime
In the sunshine, I don't mind

Take it slow, but never let me go
Don't be mean, cause I've seen it
Floor 15, in yellow green, on the screen
It's floor 15
Track Name: Ice Key
Verse 1:
Turn yourself into 2D
And twist the lock with your ice key

Now I'm hypnotized
And I'm lost in time
And these words don't mean a thing

And my line of sight
Doesn't quite look right
But it makes me wanna sing

Chorus:
I'm sure I'll find it eventually
But it won't make me happy
Getting off the ride might be suicide
But it's surely worth a try

I'm too young to die

Verse 2:
No one wants to hear me sing
Or let me express anything

I'm an idiot
And I feel like shit
Cause they kick me when I'm down

But I blame myself
Everybody else
Just happens to be around

Chorus:
I'm sure I'll find it eventually
But it won't make me happy
Getting off the ride might be suicide
But it's surely worth a try

I'm too young to die
Track Name: Gold Skulltula
Verse 1:
Coming up
When I bomb the wall
Coming out
Of your panic station

Say your prayers
It's a free-for-all
Say a prayer
Cause your spine is aching

Her skin was off-white, zombielike
She started seeing sepia
Role reversals, no rehearsal
Always getting sleepier


Chorus:
A timebomb's in my pocket
And y'know, I'm so happy to see you
I waited at the temple
And I thought that maybe I could be...

Verse 2:
Coming up
When I bomb the wall
Coming out
Of your panic station

Say your prayers
It's a free-for-all
Say a prayer
Cause your spine is aching

Pretended it was casual
But it was much more serious
She faded out into the fog
Unfaithful and myserious

Chorus:
A timebomb's in my pocket
And y'know, I'm so happy to see you
I waited at the temple
And I thought that maybe I could be...
Track Name: Either Way I'm Fine
Verse 1:
What you do is pretend to
Open up to me, then you
Turn around like you're leaving
Shame on me for believing

Fuzzier with each number
Not getting any younger
Pull me close if you mean it
Otherwise, you can leave it

Chorus:
Either way I'll be just fine
Either way I'll be just fine
Either way I'll be just fine
Either way I'll be just fine

Verse 2:
Come and tell me a story
Life is getting so boring
I'm no good when I'm with you
Even though I still miss you

Consequences are fleeting
Tell yourself there's no meaning
Though your heart is infectious
We're parallel when we exit

Chorus:
Either way I'll be just fine
Either way I'll be just fine
Either way I'll be just fine
Either way I'll be just fine

*solo*

Chorus:
Either way I'll be just fine
Either way I'll be just fine
Either way I'll be just fine
Either way I'll be just fine

Either way I'll be just fine
Either way I'll be just fine
Either way I'll be just fine
Either way I'll be just fine
Track Name: Sky Diving
Verse 1:
Fly above the ocean floor
Careful when you sky dive
See the end of everything
Turn into a sunrise

We could be so many things
But they're all temporary
You can take the photograph
It's more than I can carry

Verse 2:
You were buried in a book
Up late at the cabin
Fueling me with ectasy
Let's talk and see what happens

I tried to help when I was her
Hiding in the closet
Anyway, I'm leaving soon
Don't forget to lock it

Chorus:
Out of the game
But it's always worth a try
Of course, a year ago
I wouldn't have said "hi"


She don't talk much
And that's rough
Cause even when she does
She doesn't say enough

Verse 3:
I can never read your eyes
What were your intentions?
If we both go on like this
When's the intervention?

Sailing silent on the river
Like you've always wanted
Careful where you set your things
I think the boat is haunted

Chorus:
Out of the game
But it's always worth a try
Of course, a year ago
I wouldn't have said "hi"


She don't talk much
And that's rough
Cause even when she does
She doesn't say enough
Track Name: Bad Mix
Verse 1:
Hey, what happened to our melody?
It's going wrong, you sung it out of key
I sang a harmony, but we don't blend
And you're not fooling me, so why pretend?

Chorus:
And the feedback gets louder
Till my ears start ringing
I can't hear till you shout it
Hate what you're singing

Verse 2:
I'd say dynamically, there's nothing there
The tune is ruined but you just don't care
Why am I trying? Cause I'm always flat
Dunno the tempo, baby, where you at?

Chorus:
And the feedback gets louder
Till my ears start ringing
I can't hear till you shout it
Hate what you're singing

When it rains, it just pours
And I can't just fix it
We'll see what we can cover
After much remixing

Outro:
Hey, what happened to our melody?
It's going wrong, you sung it out of key
I sang a harmony, but we don't blend
And you're not fooling me, so why pretend?

I'd say dynamically, there's nothing there
The tune is ruined but you just don't care
Why am I trying? Cause I'm always flat
Dunno the tempo, baby, where you at?
Track Name: Crying Angel
Verse 1:
I think a part of me might work just like a child
I'm clingy, vapid, and attached
Fight for a stronger heart to put me back in line
I'd be devoted, what's the catch?

Chorus:
At night and in the day time
I always seem to wonder where you are
My crying angel

Verse 2:
And I can't help you, I don't know you well enough
I gotta watch it when you cry
The secret's safe, don't worry that you said too much
I'll keep it locked in my goodbye

Chorus:
At night and in the day time
I always seem to wonder where you are
My crying angel

Cause when the dawn is calling
I brace myself for losing everything
Upon the sunrise

Post-Chorus:
I didn't think that
I didn't think that
I didn't think that
This would last

*solo*

Chorus:
At night and in the day time
I always seem to wonder where you are
My crying angel

Cause when the dawn is calling
I brace myself for losing everything
Upon the sunrise

Post-Chorus:
I didn't think that
I didn't think that
I didn't think that
This would last

I didn't think that
I didn't think that
I didn't think that
This would last

Chorus:
At night and in the day time
I always seem to wonder where you are
My crying angel

Cause when the dawn is calling
I brace myself for losing everything
Upon the sunrise
Track Name: Comfort Zone
Verse 1:
Spotlights caught my vision
And made me miss the brightest star of all
And when I missed her
I think it went away

A subtle proposition
So subtle that I almost missed the mark
And when I missed it
I couldn't really say

Pre-Chorus:
Cause I sleep through my everyday

Chorus:
I lay alone
All day at home
In a little comfort zone
Cracked like broken glass on wooden floor

So set me free
I need your key
To unlock the rest of me
I'm sorry cause I'm sure you wanted more

*post-chorus solo*

Verse 2:
Losing all my blankets
I spent another day waiting for sleep
And while I waited
I lost my everything

Drama keeps me going
So much that I don't like the sound of peace
And while I'm glowing
I do so many things

Pre-Chorus:
And then I hear my doorbell ring

Chorus:
I lay alone
All day at home
In a little comfort zone
Cracked like broken glass on wooden floor

So set me free
I need your key
To unlock the rest of me
I'm sorry cause I'm sure you wanted more

*post-chorus solo*
Track Name: Disarm The Bomb
Verse 1:
When I'm out at 11
I have the longest nights
I'm drinking out of a red cup
But water does just fine

I wanna see all the movie stars
And all the famous bands
But I sit by myself instead
With all my worn out plans

Chorus:
Disarm the bomb
So I can live inside an hour
They say the socialites
End up with all the power

Verse 2:
When I'm out at 11
Always go home sad (I'm sorry, I don't like it)
Left all my microphones at home
I wanna cry so bad (Good try but I don't like it)

Spilled my drink on the speaker
The shortest circuit blew (Hey, have you heard the rumors?)
And nobody can reconnect
So now the party's through (It's wrong but I want rumors)

Chorus:
Disarm the bomb
So I can live inside an hour
They say the socialites
End up with all the power

The door is locked
It's blocked off by a telephone
I'll try to find a ride
I just wanna go home

Verse 3:
When I'm out at 11
I have the longest nights
I'm drinking out of a plastic red cup
But water does just fine

I wanna see all the movie stars
And all the famous bands
But I sit by myself instead
With all these worn out plans

Chorus:
Disarm the bomb
So I can live inside an hour
They say the socialites
End up with all the power

The door is locked
It's blocked off by a telephone
I'll try to find a ride
I just wanna go home

Disarm the bomb
So I can live inside an hour
They say the socialites
End up with all the power
Track Name: Scarlet Eyes
Verse 1:
I love it when you stroke my hair
I love your voice
I love your stare
I love your scarlet eyes and I love

Everything there is to love
About you, girl
You're so much fun
Which means you'll say goodbye because

Chorus:
Unusually, it's going well
A storm is coming, I can tell
The waves will wash you somewhere
That you'd

Rather be, that's lacking me
And you'll get good publicity
From Mr. Picture Perfect
Who's got

Verse 2:
Reputation to uphold
So you'll see me
And turn ice cold
But wait, that's not the end of it

He'll give you an expensive ring
And you'll be married
By the spring
You said you weren't that easy? Bullshit

Chorus:
But none of that has happened yet
So why do I get so upset?
When I don't have the proof
To say you'd

Jump ship at the sign of fear
And start by getting out of here
When all I really know
Is that

Verse 3:
I love it when you stroke my hair
I love your voice
I love your stare
I love your scarlet eyes
Track Name: Wasted Kisses
Verse 1:
It never was a question
But a lesson of our youth
I've wasted all these kisses
And you've still not told the truth

I know this conversation
Will never come to me
I've wasted all these kisses
There goes our intimacy

Chorus:
Just like you wanted
Just like you wanted from me

Verse 2:
She said let's live the future
It's not 2008
And if I could forget her
Then that would be just great

I know I'm way too forward
And I sound insincere
But I've been more than ready
To get away from here

Chorus:
Just like you wanted
Just like you wanted from me

I wasted kisses
So many kisses for so cheap

*solo*

Outro:
She said let's live the future
Track Name: Best Wishes
Verse 1:
I'd be free of sadness
Swimming in the starry sky
Even staring at the shore
While shipwrecks multiply

She's been clawing at me
Since the water cleared her head
At least I know I'm right
Though I'll end up a thankless friend

Pre-Chorus:
Cause it all went wrong

Chorus:
Started at the afterparty
Where he said best wishes
So, what did I do wrong?
To get so strung along

Asked him if he'd come to see me
Wouldn't want to miss it/this
Except he never showed
He said he couldn't go


Post-Chorus:
So, is that right?
You heard him saying something
About her life
About how she had suffered

Verse 2:
The story that connected us
Was bound to slip away
A small supply of anecdotes
Abruptly stopped one day

The happiness of meeting you
Was ruined by the end
When I had finally realized
That we'd stopped being friends

Pre-Chorus:
Cause it all went wrong

Chorus:
Started at the afterparty
Where he said best wishes
So, what did I do wrong?
To get so strung along

Asked him if he'd come to see me
Wouldn't want to miss it/this
Except he never showed
He didn't want to go

Post-Chorus:
Come on, don't lie
You're going/coming with me, aren't you?
Come to my dream
A future I could live through
Track Name: Say It Now
Verse 1:
Let's try an exercise
I'll always want it back
Even though I'm fine

You had me for a while
Now you're just a blank face
With a gentle smile

She was my friend
And she could be, again

Chorus:
The monsoon
In my room
Roars loud
But I'm never gonna waiver

Hope you do
Love me too
If not
Then I wouldn't want a favor

Let this be discreet
Cause I live right down the street

Verse 2:
The spectrum never lies
We're hanging in the middle
Trying to find a side

It's never black and white
Cause every little gesture
Is a compromise

It's all just words till you say 'em out loud
They never mean shit unless you shout
So say it now

Chorus:
The monsoon
In my room
Roars loud
But I'm never gonna waiver

Hope you do
Love me too
If not
Then I wouldn't want a favor

Let this be discreet
Cause I live right down the street

Bridge:
So say it now

Chorus:
The monsoon
In my room
Roars loud
But I'm never gonna waiver

Hope you do
Love me too
If not
Then I wouldn't want a favor

Let this be discreet
Cause I live right down the street

The monsoon
In my room
Roars loud
But I'm never gonna waiver

Hope you do
Love me too
If not
Then I wouldn't want a favor

Let this be discreet
Cause I live right down the street

Bridge:
So say it now
Track Name: Sing For You
Verse 1:
I need a rest, I'll do my best
Starting tomorrow
Dammit, why do I keep doing that?
I take my life slow

I'm sorry, don't get mad at me
Or think I'm scary
I just wanna find a way
I can reshoot the documentary

Chorus:
I'll sing for you
I'll sing for you
But only if you want me to

I'll dream of you
I'll dream of you
If that's what you want me to do

But if you don't
Then let me know

Verse 2:
Call me if you want
Because you'll always have my number
Till you lose your phone
And my contact for the summer

Guess you never read
The long apology I sent you
Wish I could've helped
When you went through what you went through

*solo*

Chorus:
I'll sing for you
I'll sing for you
But only if you want me to

I'll dream of you
I'll dream of you
If that's what you want me to do

But if you don't
Then let me know
Track Name: MIA
Verse 1:
I'm expired
I'm too old for who I admired
Douse the latern
A victim of my saddest pattern

Pre-Chorus:
Now she's gone, she's MIA
I guess she was that anyway
Oh well, stopped keeping track in May

Verse 2:
Fell for that trick
I'm trapped in the schedule I picked
Did you notice?
Your number is still on my hitlist

Pre-Chorus:
But now I'm gone, I'm MIA
I'm halfway through this lonely state
Though you stopped keeping track in May

Chorus:
What a bus ride
It felt like 2am
I said so much
I made and lost a friend

Shook so certain
I ran right past the end
And now I wanna
See the start again

Verse 3:
Do you miss me?
You don't have a reason that I see
Swim through your hair
Get tangled enough that I die there

Pre-Chorus:
Now we're gone so far away
I'd cancel all my plans today
To unload all I wanna say

Chorus:
What a bus ride
It felt like 2am
I said so much
I made and lost a friend

Shook so certain
I ran right past the end
And now I wanna
See the start again

*solo*

Pre-Chorus:
Now she's gone, she's MIA
I guess she was that anyway
She'll leave for college late next May

Chorus:
What a bus ride
It felt like 2am
I said so much
I made and lost a friend

Shook so certain
I ran right past the end
And now I wanna
See the start again
Track Name: Things That Never Happened
Verse 1:
And in time, you'll be fine
But for now, I'll sit and worry about you
Time, it lies
I don't wanna be at home but I have to

Raise the tide every night
I saw it and I'll see it again
Out all night
But I wonder where you are on the weekends

Chorus:
I swear I know your name
I swear I know your name
I swear I know, but I can't place it

Would we both be better off
If we gave another shot
To the things that never happened

Verse 2:
Am I talking too much?
If you want me, then I can shut up
What to say
I dunno because the memory's rough

I went out to the woods
And built a house of cards for a home
Arrows fly
And I know it's no one's fault but my own

Chorus:
I swear I know your name
I swear I know your name
I swear I know, but I can't place it

Would we both be better off
If we gave another shot
To the things that never happened
Track Name: Everyone's a Poser
Verse 1:
Sure, the words have flare
But purpose?
Eyes that ricochet
Make me nervous

Everyone's a poser and it doesn't rhyme
I'm running out of tombstones to hide behind

Chorus:
Tell me everything
Twenty words or less
Drop the ball early
So I won't confess

And when everything goes south
I have to say it flatly now
I can only fix it if I'm honest

Verse 2:
Sure, my heart is broke
But bleeding?
I exaggerate
My feelings

I'm the only poser and I just can't write
I'm doing handstands on steep inclines

Chorus:
Tell me everything
Twenty words or less
Drop the ball early
So I won't confess

And when everything goes south
I have to say it flatly now
I can only fix it if I'm honest

Bridge:
I don't know what to play
It just won't come
I don't know what to say
So I'll just run

The formula is failing
But it's all I've got
Let's give the chorus
One more shot

Chorus:
Tell me everything
Twenty words or less
Drop the ball early
So I won't confess

And when everything goes south
I have to say it flatly now
I can only fix it if I'm honest
Track Name: Boundary Waters
Verse 1:
It hurts me, it hurts me
Thought that we could maybe have something
Haven't seen you
Since you changed your hair

I'm sorry, I'm sorry
Sorry doesn't cut it for the past
Surfin' rocky rivers
For a dare

Chorus:
Out in the boundary waters
Try it for a while
I'll sing it loud
So you can hear

Trying to push it further
Only for a smile
But I think anything is fine
If it's with you

Verse 2:
I miss you, I miss you
There's not a star in sight tonight
I wanna stay outside
While it's still dark

It hurts me, it hurts me
I'm melting slowly in the sun
I shouldn't try
To make a spark

Chorus:
Out in the boundary waters
Try it for a while
I'll sing it loud
So you can hear

Trying to push it further
Only for a smile
But I think anything is fine
If it's with you

*solo*

Chorus:
Out in the boundary waters
Try it for a while
I'll sing it loud
So you can hear

Trying to push it further
Only for a smile
But I think anything is fine
If it's with you

Outro:
It hurts me, it hurts me
Track Name: Don't Sweat The Details
Verse 1:
I won't go forcing snapshots
Despite the things you told me
Just picking at the soft lock
And making substitute keys

I'm only just a moron
So move your expectations
I want it once it's long gone
Appreciate temptation

Chorus:
But I don't sweat the details anymore
I let it happen
I'm not preoccupied quite like before
I let it happen

Verse 2:
I won't go jump off rooftops
Despite the lack of progress
You put me in a headlock
It's looking like a happy death

I'm only just a dreamer
So don't live in reality
Cause when I stop believing
I'll be another causality

Chorus:
But I don't sweat the details anymore
I let it happen
I'm not preoccupied quite like before
I let it happen

But I don't sweat the details anymore
I let it happen
I'm not preoccupied quite like before
I let it happen
Track Name: Constant Reminder
Whew! So due to *unforeseen lack of gear* I had to scrape together an old guitar track with some melodies I never finished from March of last year right after FAWM and add some drum samples and "bass" (octave lowered guitar). And I'm incredibly satisfied with this as a closer despite the technical cheating from taking old stuff. I think it works well as both a throwback to my older style of songwriting while being an evolution of that and sounding like a solid way to end off. And of course, being an evolution of that older style, it brings back the older lyrical subjects.

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