FAWM 2018

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Cover art by Royce Leslie (also known as Rice, Monochrome Eight, and YouTube Cancer)

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released February 1, 2018

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John Vermeersch Shoreview, Minnesota

Thanks for stopping by! These are my demos, so if you're new here, I recommend checking out my band instead: lonelyenclave.bandcamp.com

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Track Name: Last of You
Verse 1:
I'm sorry that I keep doing things
That warrant a sorry
It's funny, it's over
Now I'm under weighted covers

Chorus:
Don't stand out on my doorstep
Revenge by lack of progress
But if my dream came true
Then I would see the last of you

Verse 2:
I don't care what it takes
To be an independent
To be whole, and free
Of self-inflicted mind control

Chorus:
A sad boy getting sadder
Self pity under laughter
I did the only thing to do
I hope I can be friends with you

*solo*

Chorus:
But if my dream came true
Then I would see the last of you
Track Name: Coffee (Without Cream)
Verse 1:
I wanna tell you something
That I think you should know
Oh, but my cup is getting colder
And we're out of heavy cream

I'll hide behind the counter
And wait for you to be gone
Oh, cause I always like you better
As a personal daydream

Chorus:
Now that you waver
I know I should move
No motivation
Like something to lose

But I'm a mess
I'm flavorless
Like coffee
Without the cream

Verse 2:
You like the taste of sugar
Something that I don't have
Can't be affectionate, I'm a nervous wreck
Can you deal with stupid me?

Hope you don't think I'm bitter
I'm the opposite
Except the opposite is sweet
It's something that I'll never be

Chorus:
Now that you waver
I know I should move
No motivation
Like something to lose

But I'm a mess
I'm flavorless
Like coffee
Without the cream

*solo*

Chorus:
I saw you walking
With somebody else
I've gone expired
And I'm off the shelf

But I'm a mess
It's all pointless
Like coffee
Without the cream
Track Name: Whole
Verse 1:
I'm whole
And I've got self control
I'm fine
Even better than last time

I'm doing well
I'm doing well
I'm doing well

I'm doing well
I'm doing well
I'm doing well

*instrumental break*

Verse 2:
I'm half
Your neglected photograph
I'm good
If I could be better, then I would

I'm doing well
I'm doing well
I'm doing well

I'm doing well
I'm doing well
I'm doing well

*instrumental break*

Verse 3:
I'm not
A memory that time forgot
It should
It seems like everyone that I loved could

I'm doing well
I'm doing well
I'm doing well

I'm doing well
I'm doing well
I'm doing well
Track Name: Rika
Verse 1:
I'm in love with a girl named Rika
But she doesn't exist
Though my brain can project a picture
If I give it a twist

Pre-Chorus:
That's not the way we're meant to be

Verse 2:
She throws a lamp and then she storms out
The apartment's on fire
And I think I'm gonna sleep outside now
Cause she thinks I'm a liar

Pre-Chorus:
That's not the way we're meant to
That's not the way we're meant to
That's not the way we're meant to be

Chorus:
And I'll see you in my dreams (x4)

*breakdown*

Verse 3:
I'm in love with a girl named Rika
But she doesn't love me
Slam my head into the counter
And wait patiently

Pre-Chorus:
That's not the way we're meant to be

*riff*

Pre-Chorus:
That's not the way we're meant to
That's not the way we're meant to
That's not the way we're meant to be

Chorus:
And I'll see you in my dreams (x4)

*breakdown*

Bridge:
Give me one more headrush
And then leave me in the clouds
I can disconnect the phone
Cause I can't talk right now

Living out a nightmare life
Your wildest fantasies
My body's cold, my mind is frayed
So come and talk to me


Outro:
I'm in love with a girl named Rika
I'm in love with a girl named Rika
I'm in love with a girl named Rika
I'm in love with a girl named Rika
Track Name: Sydney's Dog
Verse 1:
Sydney's got a dog named Phil
He's a labrador
And he tries to eat the cats
When he gets bored

Chorus:
They say you've never loved someone
Unless you've loved a dog
Unconditional embrace
The whole night long

Verse 2:
Sydney's got a dog named Phil
Who runs around himself
It makes him dizzy everyday
So he does something else

Chorus:
They say you've never loved someone
Unless you've loved a dog
Unconditional embrace
The whole night long
Track Name: Detonate
Verse 1:
I had to write her down
Before it got to me
Heartbroken in the heart
Of Nashville, Tenessee (Oh, baby)

Replay her pretty voice
Gets fainter by the day
I may as well
Live in the hallway

Chorus:
And so I'll think today
of things that I won't say
I'm soaking wet
And ready to detonate

*break*

Verse 2:
Where is the stupid high?
And where do plateaus go?
A whole week
With a stain glass ghost (oh oh, oh oh oh)

Blips from the submarine
We're going under
I've never
Heard that one before

Chorus:
And so I'll think today
of things that I won't say
I'm soaking wet
And ready to detonate

And so I'll dream today
Those things I'll never say
Still soaking wet
And ready to detonate

Bridge:
Deja vu, where do they keep coming from?
Siamese problems, I've done this more than once

I wish I'd learn
I wish I'd learn
I wish I'd learn

I wish I'd learn
I wish I'd learn
I wish I'd learn

*solo*

Chorus:
And so I'll think today
of things that I won't say
I'm soaking wet
And ready to detonate

And so I'll dream today
Those things I'll never say
Still soaking wet
And ready to detonate
Track Name: Sweet Release
Verse 1:
We're under neon street signs
The sunlight's out of sight
Amateur imagery's her favorite
Or I hope it is

The storm cloud's disapating
I'm free from all my old mistakes
And I'm all set to make some new ones
I'm prepared for this

Chorus:
So, do you agree with me?
We'll never ever be lonely
I'd love to be in love with you
But I know you don't want me to be

I've built it up for weeks
And now I need a sweet release
So cut it mercifully

Verse 2:
And I'm up half past midnight
I'm keeping chronicles in prose
A wordy diatribe that
Doesn't say too much at all

Oppourtune times are finite
Just look at what's already passed
I fall asleep with
"Mr. Brightside" blasting through my wall

Chorus:
So, do you agree with me?
We'll never ever be lonely
I'd love to be in love with you
But I know you don't want me to be

I've built it up for weeks
And now I need a sweet release
So cut it mercifully

*solo*

Bridge:
Gardenias spell her name
The color of my ex's hair
We're leaving in about a day

Chorus:
So, do you agree with me?
We'll never ever be lonely
I'd love to be in love with you
But I know you don't want me to be

I've built it up for weeks
And now I need a sweet release
So cut it mercifully
Track Name: Crucified by the Rumor
Verse: Dm-Bb-C-Am/Dm-Bb-C-A7

Verse 1:
Again, I'll be a martyr
Remember who forgot her
End up a fire starter
Neptuna's only daughter

Chorus:
Will you take
This to your grave
So I'm not
The one to blame

Verse 2:
The rumor spread so quickly
They're trying to convict me
What started off so sweetly
Has now dried up completely

Chorus:
Will you take
This to your grave
So I'm not
The one to blame
Track Name: Bad Guy
Verse 1:
Don't hide behind my friends
Fall madly in love with a shadow
Come up for air again
Turn back into someone that I know

Chorus:
And I'm the bad guy this time
But that's okay, it's fine
What I did to her
You've done to me

Verse 2:
The silver bullet's loaded
I shake when I aim, but I'll do it
I'll kill potential anytime I like
And you can't stop this

Chorus:
And I'm the bad guy this time
But I commit no crimes
What I did to her
You've done to me

And I can't shake the feeling
You listen through the ceiling
I can't stay tied down
To your dream

*solo*

Verse 3:
The route map's just a maze
The chemistry springs no reaction
And I can't navigate
With my thoughts cut into fractions

Chorus:
And I'm the bad guy this time
But that's okay, it's fine
What I did to her
You've done to me

And I can't shake the feeling
You listen through the ceiling
I can't stay tied down
To your dream
Track Name: I Don't Know Why
Verse 1:
Bigger rocks thrown at my window
Hotel's cold, and I just can't go
Monkey wrench in my frustration
Only want that irratation

Chorus:
I don't know why

Verse 2:
I get smarter, I get lonely
Roll me over, kill me slowly
Two more hours, then it's over
Two more hours to get closure

Chorus:
But I don't try

*solo*

Chorus:
I don't know why

Verse 3:
The snare's off beat and I'm not counting
Swimming in a shallow fountain
Bumpers pointed at each other
Pinball eyes search for another

When did I become this person?
Is it okay if it's just learning?
Caffeine baby, be my savior
Save me from this cruel behavior

Chorus:
I don't know why
Track Name: The Day I Die
Verse 1:
I can't sleep tonight
I wonder why
It's obvious to you
But not me

Break those wedding bells
And never tell
Act like everything
Is going well

Chorus:
Loosen every joint
And float around with me in outer space
I don't wanna be chased

Verse 2:
I'm already done
Cause after one
It's obvious I'm
Not any fun

Slow, don't kill me slow
Already know
My body will go
Six feet below

Chorus:
Loosen every joint
And float around with me in outer space
After all the lights are gone
Your body craves one more embrace

I can't give you everything
Though I never fully tried
Stay away from me
The day I die

*solo*
Track Name: At Twilight, Run Away
Verse 1:
I'm almost done
I'll be waiting for you
You've already knocked
For an hour

Why aren't you home?
It's so frighteningly cold
And we're both in need
Of a shower

*instrumental chorus*

Verse 2:
She isn't you
You're not making your moves
Did you prefer
Before?

The street signs are wrong
But my morals are strong
I won't let you
Take more

Chorus:
Run away
Run away
Easy for you to say
So easy for you to say

Post-Chorus:
But every time...

Verse 3:
Don't whisper now
There's still people around
Can I
Not apologize?

It's neutral for me
Because nothing is free
It balances out
In time

Chorus:
Run away
Run away
Easy for you to say
So easy for you to say

Post-Chorus:
But every time
I come up short
Like a burnt out light
With a blank report

At twilight, I can't cry
Can't cry no more

*instrumental*

Chorus:
Run away
Run away
Easy for you to say
So easy for you to say

Post-Chorus:
But every time
I come up short
Like a burnt out light
With a blank report

At twilight, I can't cry
Can't cry no more

*solo*

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