I had this chorus melody for a few days before starting to work on the song, which I wrote in my bedroom like a lot of my older stuff. I tried to go full Green Day with this one and I'm really happy with how heavy it turned out. Lyrically, it's about post-high school depression, specifically through remembering an old crush, and the last line connects to some of my older songs about that person ("Sweet Release" and "Detonate").
lyrics
Verse 1:
My life has been a rising action
But I don't know where it goes
The resolution's nowhere close
I think it's time I told you something
I'm not sure how you'll react
But I've been living in a flashback
Verse 2:
Last year was such a disappointment
I've gotta dig through the debris
And find out who I wanna be
But for now, I'll put on faces
Every conversation's an interview
Just one more motion to go through
Pre-Chorus:
Especially in winter, I tend to think about
The people that I used to know
Dance on the walls, cast shadows in the air
Your afterglow is my plateau
Chorus:
And I miss this, baby
And I miss this, baby
No matter where you are
No matter where you are
And I miss this, baby
And I miss this, baby
No matter where you are
No matter where you are
Verse 3:
Although my life was like a movie
I think subconsciously I knew
That someday soon I'd end up screwed
And I can't come back uninvited
I'd always find a new excuse
I'd give my life to dance with you
Pre-Chorus:
How many books have I written about you?
How many more do I have left?
We're so far apart, becoming memories
Eventually, we'll both forget
Chorus:
And I miss this, baby
And I miss this, baby
No matter where you are
No matter where you are
And I miss this, baby
And I miss this, baby
No matter where you are
No matter where you are
Outro:
The lobby was cold
I went upstairs alone
credits
from 50/90 2019,
track released August 18, 2019
John Vermeersch: guitar, bass, drum samples, vocals
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